Oh no! Are they playing tag or is it something a bit more sinister? A rush job tonight am afraid. I actually doodled this at 3D school while at lunch time. I went off on my own today for lunch. I just wanted to relax and draw. Shut down for a little bit. I shall socialize with fellow students tomorrow lunchtime. I have barely spoken to anyone the last few days. I've just been concentrating on the tasks at hand in school and formulating plans on how I could make the tutorials am doing more folio worthy. Because at the end of the day, that's what I need to show to people and I can't waste the opportunities. learn how to do something. Then do it again and make it better.
Being back at school is challenging. I painted after school last night. Then today I trained after school, putting up this post and then am going to go and do more painting because I need to do the prints and the scans at the very latest on Saturday night. It is challenging juggling everything. I freelance, I am trying to establish myself as an illustrator/artist with my fish bones and learning 3D, as well as training. I do need the training, keep myself fit and active and to help break down the mental barriers in my head.
Training with Justin today was tough. I have been training with Justin for a month now. I hired him as my personal trainer at the start of the year. I have started to lose my drive at the gym and my food eating habits got a bit worse and I missed having challenges and someone there to just kick my ass into gear. I don't have the mental capabilities to train myself in a manner that could get me to my ideal fitness and to be able to physically do certain things that I have always wanted to do. The mental barriers that break at exercise will stick with me outside of it. I need to break some mental demons. I am not to a point that I am happy with yet. I will get there though. Training with Just has been awesome though! I look a whole lot better, am trimmer, I can see progress, I am fitter than I have been in a long time and I do enjoy it. I mean, I am wrecked at training but I really do enjoy it. I really am a sucker for punishment. Tsk.