Emotional


Day 89 of illustrating everyday.  I have been feeling rather emotional the last few days and today was particularly bad.  I guess it was a combination of being stuck at home because of the miserable weather we had here in Melbourne today and being alone and working for hours and hours.  I find myself thinking a lot about my life, myself and my past and thinking...wow....if only I could change a few things.

I am naturally reactionary and open with my emotions and I have gotten better with controlling and suppressing things but it takes a lot of effort and it simply does not come naturally to me so it eventually bursts out elsewhere eventually. I sometimes feel that it makes me less of a person because of that.  Less of an adult.  I don't think this is the case but I have felt that way because of the way certain people have reacted to me and I know that no one can make me feel inferior unless I let them and no one has lately, but the past is a funny thing and past experiences can rear its head in certain situations.  It's close to 1 in the morning and clarity went to bed a while back.

Done in Flash.